There have been so many things I have been learning in this new stage of life. I am so blessed to be over here in Myrtle Beach where I live ten minutes from the beach. The beach has been one of the biggest gifts God has given me in this season of life.
In the mornings, I like to go to there to seek stillness. To be in the quiet. To feel the wind brush against my face. To hear the gentle roar of the ocean. And sometimes, to see the sunrise (if I can get up early enough.)
These are some of my most cherished moments since moving here and in these moments I feel my perspective shift.
See, in this role I find myself in, I can feel like I’m drowning sometimes. From the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep, there is something I could be doing. Some form I could be creating, a text I could be answering, an idea I could be making reality. Always. Something.
And I’ve been getting overwhelmed. For sure. I want to do it all and do it all so well, but I am humbled every day to remember that I’m going to fall short. I’m going to mess up. And that’s okay, because those mistakes don’t have to define me. And these feelings of being overwhelmed don’t have to enslave me.
I can choose freedom. I can choose to take a different perspective. I can choose joy. Looking out on the vastness of the ocean reminds me of how much bigger the world is than I realize. It reminds me of the endless length and depth of God’s love for me. And when I get to see the sunrise or sunset and see the sky painted the most beautiful colors, I like to think that God painted it that way just to remind me that He’s here and He’s always providing for me. He offers to carry my burdens if I just let Him. He won’t fail me.
Scripture describes beautifully how I feel when I look out onto the ocean:
My response is to get down on my knees before the Father, this magnificent Father who parcels out all heaven and earth. I ask him to strengthen you by his Spirit—not a brute strength but a glorious inner strength—that Christ will live in you as you open the door and invite him in. And I ask him that with both feet planted firmly on love, you’ll be able to take in with all followers of Jesus the extravagant dimensions of Christ’s love. Reach out and experience the breadth! Test its length! Plumb the depths! Rise to the heights! Live full lives, full in the fullness of God.
God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us. ~Ephesians 3:17-21
There is a bigger perspective in everything. I don’t want to get so lost in the day-to-day that I forget about the good and the larger story being written here. I am so humbled that I get to be here and that I get to do the job I am currently undertaking. At the end of the day, it is so important to remember the bigger picture. I’m learning that I can choose to find peace in the midst of the chaos. The ocean helps re-center my perspective and reminds me of the never-ending rhythms of God’s love and grace. Grace that I am drowning in every day.